Well another day another mishap...Doud tried to kiss Q knowing she has a boyfriend. Who is this human being? This is not the boy I fell in love with three years ago...man. I mean I really think that he has chaged for the worse. I remember when all he was was a tall skrawny boy that need a hair cut. When I saw the if's and not the ares...what happened to that boy? Where did he go from sweet, innocent, and gentle, to this...this...God I can't think of another word, this monster! I in all honesty want to handcuff him to a chair, sit on him lap, put one arm around his shoulder and with the other point a Swiss army knife to his Atom's apple and demand answers and if they are not to my liking he's not going to enjoy the concequesnces. He's no longer a Cheerleader due to the fact that it wold interfer with his summer job of being a life guard(women in even less clothing) Oh man what in the world? Quita thought that maybe saying I'd found another guy would perhaps make him respond better. I laughted at that though(me have a boyfriend and him being jealous both very funny things) I don't know I don't think it's right to use someone just to make him jealous and I shouldn't have to make him feel that way to get his attention. Being jealous is a horrible feeling. This is so infuriating I mean most mean would kill to have a woman love them the way I love him and yet he's content to bounce from female to female. Ahh I need a new hunt. Once when I first met him my friend said I treated find a boyfriend like an assian would treat hunting down his targert. I stuided the boy for months before I even spoke with him. I knew his usual haunts, old girlfriends worht talking to, guys he was on the team with, I knew almost everything before we even introduced myself. And I want to know what's wrong with going out with a person that knows you? Alan and Q where talking about that at lunch and I was utterly confused by such a mind set. What's wrong with going out with someone that's been there for you or knows what kind of person you are? What's with going out and having to make a whole new person understand who you are and what you believe? I mean there's nothing wrong with an outsider once in a while but don't slam a door on friends that may grow to be more than friends. Man I'm just rambeling. I'm going to finish up something and collect my thoughts and then come back and write something that makes sense. sorry if this has confused anyone.